Things you probably don't care about

Here is some mind vomit. just some thoughts I need to get out.

Sometimes it just hits me that right now I am in the time of my life that older people often reminisce about...

We are a young family, busy with new jobs, new babies, and new places. I have realized lately that my life is pretty much exactly how I pictured it would be when I was 12 years old. I am LOVING being a young mom and my two little babies and call me crazy but even though I have a 2 month old I already am thinking about when the next one will come and what that new little baby will be like (in the rare moments I am not squealing about how adorable my daughters are of course). I have no idea where I will be at this same time next year and to be honest I don't really mind that. I love that we still have adventure ahead of us, we still don't have to grow up and settle down. There is still just a bit of wind in our sails.

I can't believe that we have already been in J-ville for 9 months. I am not kidding when I say it is the FASTEST 9 months has ever gone with me. I thought it would seem long since I was pregnant but in fact it has been quite the opposite. I blink and it is a new month and new things going on. I swear Lo was just born and here she is smiling and cooing at me and trying to roll over- what happened to my newborn>?!!! I finally feel a little more at ease here but it still doesn't feel like home. not sure if it ever will just since it is SO different then the places I spent my previous 25 years but who knows.

sure life is hard. Sometimes I can't figure out why life is so dang expensive. sometimes having a sick husband and doing a lot of things by myself is tough but luckily I have the gospel to shake me out of my poor me attitude and I realize things don't suck so bad. Recently JT has been having fewer migraines which is awesome- expensive but awesome (he is doing some physical therapy and it costs $40 a visit, yikes.) As a family we recently went to a service project of cleaning up a cemetery, it was hard work , and boy were we sweaty. We pushed Lola around in the stroller and Miley used her little rake and picked up sticks but it was just one of those moments where I was really happy. Working hard together really makes me feel good and I am glad Miley got to see that serving our community is important enough for our whole family to get out and do it.

I have now gotten to the postpartum stage where I don't feel so good about the crappy way I am taking care of my body. Too many treats, not enough vegetables, definitely not enough water. I really want to start being more healthy so that I can set a good example for Jt and Miley. Can you believe I once went a year without drinking soda and only ate 1 treat per week for months... where has all my self discipline gone!!!!! Anyway if I figure any of that out I will let you know.

potty training is my least favorite parenting duty so far, we are having lots of regression with Miley boooo. Lola will be in diapers until kindergarten probably. lovely.