Chronicles of Love: part VI

I last left you at "we hung out every day for the rest of the summer" I feel like that doesn't even describe how much we were together. Jt was working at the bank and I was working for BGC, I can't remember exactly what activities we did but everyday as soon as he got off work he would come pick me up or I would go pick him up and we would just hang out. We would often go to parks and just swing and talk or kiss on the playground hahaha. What sticks out to me was how hard it was to say goodnight. like walk out to the car to say goodbye and stand there... for an hour. Sometimes I didn't get home until 4 in the morning- My poor parents!!! It was SO hard to say goodnight every. single. night. I often would doze off at work in the morning I was so tired! I remember us going to the temple to walk around when we had been dating for like... maybe 3 weeks? Maybe less? Maybe we discussed what we were- and I think we even started joking about getting married. crazy right? It felt so natural it didn't even phase me. This boy was already becoming my absolute best friend. He made me feel so great about myself and was so spiritual and I loved hearing his thoughts on things and I truly valued his opinion. I remember us having a serious conversation about myspace and me going home and deleting my myspace account that night ha ha! I helped him set up a facebook account and loved how he thought he was such a gangster when really he was the skinniest white kid around (think like 155lbs or something ridiculous like that).

Just to refresh your memory remember this was just a "summer thing" -I wasn't going to go back to provo with a long distance boyfriend and miss out on all the boy opportunities there. I guess JT wasn't cool with that because he tried to change my mind. Jt planned a special date where we went to benihana . I planned a date for the following day- my last full day in seattle -The day before I left to go back to provo and sadly I can't precisely remember the date. We went canoeing at the arboretum, shopping down near the aquarium and to the aquarium.

While canoeing we paddled under the overpass filled with creepy birds and over to a deserted little piece of grass on the shore and got out and laid on a blanket talking. For the past week or so we had been saying to each other "I really really like you" but I was still surprised when Jt then turned to me and just looked at me for a long time and said " I love you- I have never felt this way before- it's crazy" or something like that. I think I said "thanks" hahahaha it caught me really off guard and I wasn't sure I felt the same way so I didn't say it back. I had never told anyone I loved them before! He was a good sport about it and we continued on our way. At some point we were down by the pier and went in a little photo booth. I was indescribably happy and my thoughts were - I reeeeeally like this guy- and yet I feel like saying "I really like this guy doesn't describe how I feel so... it must be love!" and so I said it. Confessed my love in a photo booth- sadly I lost the picture but I bet we were both smiling pretty big. In my mind we had been dating for two months when we said it but I think it was more like 6 weeks!

here is the photo proof of said date...

you can see the photo booth picture in my hand!

we asked this custodian woman to take our picture and she encouraged us to put on the beaver costumes....

I left the next day and Jt came to see me off. We were both super sad :( I drove away and as I did we were no longer officially a couple (seems silly doesn't it after just deciding we were in love). Jt had a really hard time this day- he was going through some really tough stuff with his family and looking back I am so sad I added more stress to his life- bah humbug!

I went back to school. We talked every single night. For hours and hours. It was like unspoken rule that you did not go to sleep without talking to each other. We would wait until it was "night time" for our phone plans since I had free night minutes and then we would just talk until one of us fell asleep. I got really great grades that semester thanks to my lack of social life! We still were not dating and yet ended every single phone call with "I love you" I think one boy was starting to think about asking me out but I casually mentioned I sort of had this guy blah blah and never went out with anyone. One night at the end of september while walking home from some sporting event on campus I just felt really sad and started to cry and realized i was just plain ol missing Jt. I told him about later that night and he called me out on how ridiculous the whole situation was with us talking every night, not dating other people, and saying I love you all the time. I realized it as well and we decided we were back together!!! Hurray!